Mother's Day

Mother's day weekend started out so fun because I got to watch my kids all doing what they love. The girls had their last dance competition, so we watched Makayla do her solo one last time. She did the best she has ever done and we are so proud of her. 

Then Saturday was a fun filled day of dance and basketball. The girls had their team dances and we loved watching them onstage one last time. 

In between dances we went to Caden's last basketball game. They had the best season and took 2nd place in their division!! Caden got a new high score this season and had so many good assists and steals. He is one fierce player on the court, which is so funny, because he is so gentle at home. 

This is such good group of boys and I hope they play together for a long time. 

Then it was back for more dance. 

Sunday the kids and Tyler made me breakfast and got my favorite drinks. 

Then I got to open presents and the kids spoiled me with so many great things. I got new perfume, capris, home made gifts and the sweetest notes. 

After church we were off to Tammy's house for a party to celebrate all the moms in the family and Grandpa Collard's 90th birthday. 

And I can't forget my mom. We celebrated her mother's day and birthday a few weeks ago. 

Thinking about my mom is hard. I miss her, even though she is still here. I miss being able to have someone to talk to and to share all the good and bad things that come with life. I can't remember the last time my mom called me just to talk, and that hurts. I see my friends with their moms and I'm jealous because my mom doesn't know who my kids are and she's starting to forget who I am. Even though I'm almost 40, I still need my mom, and I am just really missing her right now. I try to hold on to all the good memories I have with her like how we would go shopping and to lunch at Taco Time every Saturday. I remember the times we would go to the library and check out a stack of books and then go home and read on her bed. I loved the girls trip down to Mesquite we braved the horrible snow storm and how my mom won $800 that night. I admire my mom's courage and sacrifice as she helped to take care of her mom and dad and sister as they were passing. I've learned a lot from my mom from her example. She wasn't perfect, and there's a lot of things I do differently because I learned from her mistakes, but she is my mom and I love her... and I just really, really miss her.